Friday, August 27, 2010
This has been such a reflective summer for me. It started off in June, when I celebrated my 5 year mark...5 years since my cancer diagnosis. And even though I thought this time would pass...that I would be able to fold up the last 5 years, neatly, and put them up on a shelf...it's the strangest thing. I haven't been able to do that. I'm reminded of it every day.
I was reminded of it on Monday, as I walked onto campus with C. There we walked, hand in hand, to the classroom where 5 years previously I had walked Big C to 3rd grade. (Well, different room, but same teacher!) I remember shaking the young, first-year teacher's hand. I remember explaining to him about my cancer, as I peered from underneath one of my many hats. I remember his eyes, big and round as saucers. "If you could just keep an eye on Big C," I said. "It's been a tough time on him too."
I remember being so thrilled that I felt well enough to take the kids to school that day 5 years ago. I had already begun my chemo treatments. Little C was just 3 years old and was still home with me. I remember thanking God that I was the one to send the boys off to 1st and 3rd grade. It was a prayer answered. I remember.
So Monday, my mind was flooded with thoughts of the last 5 years, again.
We had brought by C's supplies to class, earlier the past week and talked diabetes with him. And, since he is already familiar with our family, the diabetes issue was not a surprise. We greeted Mr. H. We talked for just a few minutes. Soon, we will be scheduling a 504 meeting soon, after things settle down a bit. I really just wanted to go over the very basics with him. C handed him a very cute pink box, loaded with D stuff. Teacher and C decided together where the best place would be for it...easy access to her extra meter, juice boxes, snacks and such.
We shook hands and turned to leave. He expressed to C how happy he was to see her name on his class list. "This will be a great year!" he said. "I remember having Big C in class 5 years ago."
"Yes," I replied. "I so remember. This will be a great year!"